Post #14

Went out last night to my best friend’s place. Just him, his fiancee and me. I am just now getting to know more about his wife-to-be and I am liking her more and more with each meeting. I am glad he has decided to let us mingle a little more and hope it continues.

Anyways…the main reason for my post is what happened as the night went on…

At one point in the evening my friend and his bride to be asked me if I wanted to smoke a joint with them. My first thought was “Ummm, No!” but then I thought about it a little more and concluded that my initial reaction was due to my past experiences and I wanted to leave those in the past. I thought again, and about the company I was in and became a little more comfortable with the environment. You see it has been over 7 years for me since I smoked up and I was never big on the idea anyway. However, the real deciding factor was who I was with. This friend and I have been best friends for like ever and I don’t think I would want to do it with anyone but him as I feel very safe in his company. So, I thought, “well why not, let’s see if it affects you the same way as it did way back then.” Yep, it did! I so tried to contain myself as we all sat there on the couch. I mean, weed for some reason, makes me become a giggling girly…LOL. I can laugh and do laugh at anything and will continue to laugh at whatever made me laugh in the first place for hours. Needless to say, there were bouts of laughter and I tried very hard to remain composed which for the most part I was, which was good <thumbs up> I didn’t want to give my friends the wrong impression. Now, normally I also become quite paranoid and at one point during the evening my best friend got up and went towards the window, I started getting a little unsure but he was just grabbing a blanket but my anxiety started up but slowly disappeared. I enjoyed the relaxing feeling that came with the drug but for some reason always feel like I shouldn’t be doing or feeling this way. I guess it is my paranoia. Anyways, my biggest question I have asked myself since this morning was…would I do it again? I am not 100% fixed on my answer and will have to think about it some more, but I am more open to the thought of doing it again, so that tells me something.

Will keep you updated….

Until Next Time,

‘Life – It Is What It Is’

~ Purplehaze81 ~