Post # 28

It’s amazing how different songs mean different things to each person and how one song can affect someone so much.  I recently bought the Avril Lavigne CD “Under My Skin” and while listening to one song, ‘Take Me Away’ I really felt it spoke to me and explained in basic terms what I have been feeling in regards to the whole TF situation.

I thought I would share….

Post #15 (1 of 2)

LOL…yes you read the title right! I am going to write in this post about the ‘hell date’ that I went on in March. I have been meaning to write about this for quite some time but like I mentioned in a previous post, I had school and my exam which of course takes precedence over my postings. But now with school done, I can now take the time and tell you exactly what happened in my own words.

How it began…

So like numerous posts before this one I had mentioned my recent activity on single dating websites. Well, plenty of fish was the site I was frequenting most at this time and I received a message from a guy by the name of Jeff. I checked out his profile and <nodding> he was cute and had some characteristics that I am interested in. So I messaged him back. We sent messages back and forth for a day or so and then he added me to his MSN list of contacts. We talked for about another day or so and I noticed that the majority of the conversations were one sided (my side of course) and he really wasn’t giving me much to go with so we ended up not communicating much after the second day, so I deleted him from my MSN account. That ended that wonderful online love affair….lol…NOT!

Anyways, on March 15th I had just got home from being out with my mom and I was going to do some school work. I logged on to MSN and almost instantly I get a message and I have no clue who this person is. So I asked and he says that it is Jeff and that we had spoken a while ago from POF (plenty of fish). I remembered him but was not going to really converse with him as I thought how wonderful our previous conversations had been, but said ‘hello’ back to him anyways. He asked what I was doing and so I told him my plans. He sounded a little disappointed with my response and asked if I would like to get together and go for a nature walk and grab a coffee. I thought about it and replied that I don’t drink coffee. He responded and asked if I wanted to get together. I looked outside and it was gorgeous out and a nature walk would be nice. I also remembered him being cute so I thought well why not, my social life is more important than school right now….lol.

So I said ok. He replied back saying that he believes that the park close to his house closes at 5 pm so if we were going to go we should get ready. It was now coming on 2:30 pm. I told him I would need about an hour to get ready. He asked if I could come get him in Thornhill and then we can go to the park. I live in Mississauga, 30 minutes away from Thornhill. I of course thought, okay, no problem. I like to drive anyways.

The Phone Call…

Post #2…

I was listening to my music collection last night and I heard a song for the first time and I was amazed as to how well this song captures what I have dealt with and gone through in my life in regards to love. I thought that I would post the song. Although very close to what I have experienced, I am going to edit a few parts of the song to personalize it. I have used brackets [ and ] around words that I have changed or inserted in order to do this.

The song is called “What Is This Love” by Blue Rodeo. I would highly recommend you listen to this song…it is beautiful.

What is this love
That I have [left] behind
How can I turn
From the tears in [my] eyes

What is this world
Where [I] always [believe]

That it is [all] worth it
Worth it in the end

What is this life we share[d]
That I [have] throw[n] away
[Why] is [it] love
That causes so much pain

What is the promise
That I leave behind
Why can’t I
Just lie beside you again

Chorus:
What’s goin’ on
How’d it get so wrong

What is this dream
[I don't think] I’ll ever find
What is this prayer
That’s [still on] my mind
What is this deal
That I’ve just made with fate

And I wonder [to myself]
If I [can continue to wait]

I am very interested in hearing your thoughts on this and your interpretation(s) of what I have just posted.

Until next time,

‘Life – It Is What It Is’

~ Purplehaze81 ~